I woke up this morning at 4am wide awake with a tight chest, my anxiety on full blast. I’ve been dealing with anxiety a lot the past few weeks but this morning it was back one hundred percent. 

I’ve always dealt with anxiety, and usually I can handle it pretty well. 

Full disclosure, I’ve tried different anti-anxiety medication and never found one that helped or made me feel good. I have no judgement for anyone who does take medicine and I’m glad that they found something that can help them feel the best they can. I know there are many degrees of anxiety and sometimes ya need medicine.

Anyways, I’ve been feeling anxious for the past few weeks. Just a slight level of uneasiness, more worrying, double and triple checking to make sure that things are locked/turned off, short temper, bad dreams, basically all the fun stuff.

Thankfully I’ve found some things that have helped me deal with it.

When the anxiety hits:

  1. BREATHE - I take deep, long breathes and try to figure out what exactly I’m feeling and breathe into it. I try to identify the cause or underlying feeling, breathe into it and release it.

  2. MEDITATE - I use a Gabrielle Bernstein or Headspace meditation or even music with no lyrics (Explosions in the Sky or Godspeed You! Black Emperor are my go-tos) and try to turn my head off.

  3. MAKE A LIST - Sometimes there are a million things stressing me out so I write them all out. I see which ones I can control (house things, job, etc) and which ones I can’t (current state of world affairs). For the ones I can control I start writing out actionable steps I can take. Even the ones I can’t control 100% I write down places I can donate money too or people to write letters too. Seeing all my fears and anxieties on a paper with ways to fix them calms me down.

  4. MOVE - Sometimes this means a run, sometimes (like at 4am) it means just an easy going yoga flow to move some of the anxious energy out of my body.

How I try to prevent anxiety:

  1. EAT WELL- When I eat whole foods and no processed foods, I feel good. When I load up on vegan junk food and a ton of sugar it just doesn’t feel good. Same thing goes for drinking. I have a glass or two of wine a week. If I have more then that it doesn’t do my anxiety any favors. When I’m really going through it, I abstain completely from alcohol. It’s just what works for me.

  2. MEDITATE AND GRATITUDE - Every morning I meditate, and when I’m really stress-y I meditate at night. I also keep a gratitude journal to write down everything I’m thankful for and to let out any wild thoughts that may be stuck in my brain. Getting it out on paper is very therapeutic for me.

  3. CUT CAFFEINE - More then one or two cups of coffee and my cortisol is rising. I stick to my morning cup and will have some green tea in the afternoon. The past few weeks I’ve been drinking 2-3 cups (two mugs in the morning, a large nitro cold brew in the afternoon, possibly another one if I’m feeling like it) no wonder I’ve been feeling off.

  4. ADAPTOGENS - These have helped me SO MUCH. I will talk your ear off about how much I love ashwagandha. I put it in my smoothies and my coffee and lately I’ve been using Moon Juice’s Super You which also contains ashwagandha and other adaptogens to help reduce your cortisol levels. Reishi also helps.

  5. WATCHING WHAT I CONSUME - I don’t watch the news. I’ll go online (after I meditate, move, etc) and briefly check the world events but I don’t get sucked into it like I used to be. I’m not saying I’m not political (I am very political) I just don’t spend hours arguing with people, reading opinions or comments or reading every story about the latest bad thing that has happened. We used to turn on the news as soon as we woke up and I just felt like I was bombarded with negativity as soon as I woke up. I also try to stop watching tv an hour before I go to bed.

I hope this helps anyone who needs it. I know it’s not my usual running or nutrition but if your minds not right nothing is going to be right. And just a reminder, if you need help, please contact a professional.

Let me know in the comments if these have helped you or any ways you deal with anxiety.

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